Something clicked for me though, when I thought of myself as Debbie Downer. I get to adopt this little girl...this beautiful little girl! Add to that, I will be leaving the continent and traveling the globe for the first time in my life. I can't express how exciting that is to me! We really should be traveling within a few months even if it won't be in 2011. God is providing in amazing ways, and I do believe He has promised to take care of us even without the 2011 tax credit. Oh, and I bought the cutest bright pink coat for my Jada last weekend, with a matching hat and mittens!
I have so much to be thankful for, and really and truly no reason to fret. And yet, even since I've started typing this, the sadness is creeping in again. I want to get this little girl and bring her home. Praise God that the Spirit can intercede for us with groans that words cannot express.